Chapter 470: My First Story

Art has been pretty much all I spend my time on, I hardly find time for anything else because my real life is miserable, lonely, and dull. I spend time thinking about what I'm going to do for the rest of this month, finish up commissions and collect the rest of my money. Then I'll either look for a regular day job or wait a few days for another commission to come up. 
So I was telling someone last night that we need to start separating Art from reality because this is why censorship exist, people like to confuse fiction with reality and when reality gets in the way of creativity then we are restricted on the type of ideas and themes we can invest in. 

I've been exposed to a variety of different art styles and ideas since I was about 8 years old when I use to finger paint, color in coloring books (I actually still do this lol), And sometimes I'd take magazines that my mom didn't want and I would get a pen to draw with it, so what I'd do is make this scribbly looking snake that would devour everything in site, for some reason me and my brother loved doing this to Fingerhut Magazines. God everything in that book was overpriced, but they were fun to scribble in. I was never good at creating any real art, never. That's because I didn't have the patience to learn, the very first program I used that made creating art easy was called Story Book Weaver. I was in the 3rd grade and our class had just received a bunch of brand new apple computers. So each kid in the class got the chance to use one, that was the first time I used a computer in my life.

The teacher had installed Story Book Weaver on every single computer and told us that the assignment for that month was to build our own world, and then write a story based on it. Mine was called "The Lizard Man." It was about this lonely man who wore a sheet over his head because he felt ugly and unwanted. Then one day he meets these three lizards that followed him everywhere he went. They were like geckos, didn't walk upright like humans either because they were the real geckos the ones that scurry around on the ground.
But this man with the sheet finally had friends in his life. It made no sense, and there were kids that told much better stories, they were able to make better use of the program. Most of the Asian kids in my class used the program like they already had experience with it, and it would take me hours just to put something together.

Then I remember my teacher rushed me to finish and I had got mad with him because I wanted to take my time, and because it was a very addictive program I wanted to spend hours playing with it, writing the stories were always the fun part right after you put the images together. It was similar to Poser and DAZ except it was meant for little kids. This is what it looked like.




My mother kept the story I had I wrote, then one day she came into my room when I was upset and bitter about something, she said "do you remember this?" And showed me the first story I had ever done...The Lizard Man. I was happy to see it, and I immediately took a trip down memory lane when I was that kid with the wild imagination.  It was truly a story I felt connected with, and she even had all those fingerhut magazines me and my brother use to scribble in like maniacs.
You don't really realize your potential when you're that young in life, as a child all I ever did was day dream, but I was never sure what the hell I wanted to be, or do with my life. Writing and telling stories was always one of those things that made me feel good, but as I got older I desired what I couldn't have in life, and that made it difficult to concentrate.

When I write and work on a project I do my best to invest in the plots and characters. I immerse myself in the fictional world, but I understand that separating fiction from reality is very important to me. I don't take art serious enough to care about the things that occur in whatever story it is that I'm writing, or that someone else is writing. That's why I don't get mad when I see something in art that deals with sensitive subject matters. I'm hardly concerned with the real world, so to me...
Art is just a place where people go to escape reality but sometimes they bring part of the real world with them, and when they do this they can be easily triggered and upset when they run into sensitive content in a story they feel is true or a threat to them.

Me personally, it's all fiction and fiction has never gave me a reason to feel triggered or threaten. You can write a whole story about black people being gunned down by white confederates or Neo-Nazi's, and it still wouldn't piss me off. Rape the nappy headed women for all I care, it's your story. Tell it how you want it. Freedom of Expression is a right, and when artists don't use it...Then to me they're not writing stories worth reading if it's political corrected just to keep from upsetting or offending someone.